Topic: I know i have been gone

[ericb]

hiya Hazel,those a very good.

Eric Eric Eric... You should go around Hazel... give her cookie... play nice... make her feel her secrets are safe... then she will spoil what Grebel is even without being aware of what happened
Don't growl on inspiration or it will keep distance few steps away ... Well... My question is if you don't know what to write about or you don't know yet how to make it special lol .. I guess Eric idea is quite good option ... You can write about our game to get to know something only one secret group seems to know ... what seems actually to be more twisted and complicated from few facts ... One is that the secret seems to be actually lost forever... Some shelf of memory fell off from someones head ... And initiation into secret seems to depend on agreement of all Grebels ... what is hard lately since we cant keep them in one place lately

lol,hiya Rob.

[hazel681]

i feel so foolish
for coming across vulnerable
i see it in myself
and i want to fall to pieces
this given situation its taking over me
i feel overhelmed and im anxious
i hate it with intensity
its like my chest has been cracked open
stealing my breath and exposing the inside
but what only people focus on
is the pain rolling down my face
i want to love you more
without a clock ticking
i hope you are good tonight
because its hitting me all at once again and again
i start to see a darkness rolling in
if you have time to save me
i cannot hold it back
i cannot contain it all
say that our love is not like the others
i shut off the light and slip under the covers
i want to be older
i dont want to keep on going backwards
and take back what was said before
lets unbreak broken after all
i force myself to go to sleep
not caring if i spend all night wide awake
look in me eyes and say we havent changed
no not one bit
seal with a heartfelt promise
and a perfect kiss
this wont happen and i lose my mind no i cannot hold this back
dont be distant and undo the grasp you had from my hand
tell me one last time you'll keep in touch, you know you can
cause i cannot contain myself at all
and im feeling down, i feel inside out
i know im bad for admitting that i need you now
if you still have enough time to save me
and i see it in myself
im sure as hell not okay, but i hope you are tonight

[ericb]

your writing's great,is it about a bf? i'm guessing it is.

[hazel681]

yep....

[Vikki]

well firstly....*exhales*......finally caught up.....secondly...h ey hey, gd to see u bk!....thirdly....lovi ng everything u've written here, so much emotion and flow and they're all really great, keep on writing.

[Mrok(Gloom)Robert M]

Here is proof that my memory doesn't work well enough if to burden it for longer than a month... I guess I would need to wait for some sort of flash if not my curiosity today to take a look in here... I cant say I really feel poetry lately... I don't love feeling to use its acceleration for senses... but your art is certainly strong... I bet your emotions evolved since then, but I am aware it could find many directions... I hope writting gave you needed release... It used to help me... in past times... Now its turning into alien art for my ghost heart... But... even ghost remembers life... just sense is a bit different... like different eyes... Tc... Hold whole... Come back... Remind yourself that one of most precious values in you is your smile... so... wake it up... at least sometimes 

[hazel681]

LIFE TIGHTROPE
I cant hold you to it
Spun spider webs but they came undone
Slip into the night it feels fresh on my skin
Another reason to hold myself in
I walk on this tightrope that’s becoming thinner
Born into innocence and die a sinner
I’m the shadow from this light
I don’t need to return
An irredeemable loss
Theres no promise that can be kept
When the hero of this story has fallen victim
Its not over but its withering more each day
There are cracks in my glass
But I don’t throw it away
Im a warrior that’s weak
Im only momentarily unsure
I cant see no end to this
Posted on: 22-11-2010, 23:11:21
THE MOST PRECIOUS OF TREASURES Inconsistency still new
Waving high and low and its currents still flowing
Not being able to stream out of this barrier
I’ve drowned in this hopelessness for there’s only way to get back
Empty  is so filling, who knew it could take up a room
For when I go in, the air once breathing you
Being left behind is only this story
And branches off into so many different feelings
In the dark, I cant find relief
To put up with these trials I cant go on much longer
Its those hands that I desire
I miss those moments of love
Its ripping me in pieces
 falling in and out
Of these ups and downs
I would treat It like the most valuable treasure
The most precious hour running out and fast
With each hand, this pain still lasts
For it is the most valuable hour
The most precious of treasures
Growing colder as each days go on
I will tell you what this distance has done
It’s made me the more lost in repression
The more desire to run, but I am more scared
That this is right, still believing that its wrong
Posted on: 22-11-2010, 23:14:47
STUCK IN MOTION
i want to go away for while
dont know when i will come back
cause running is all i do
in my mind it feels so safe
i know that one day it will dissipate
but right now i cant put no end to this
i let my feet go where they want
i give them control and they say its not okay
that im just a kid who fell in love at such
a young age
but they dont know anything at all
and now im stuck in motion
i wish to return but im afraid
it wont be alright again
i hate feeling like im the only one
no im not independent
i just want to be alone
im on my own, going down this road
this jump is so very high
no im not prepared for it and its fine
im going to make the best of it
let myself fall in every direction
misguiding myself til i find a peaceful place
and its not close to satisfying
all i need is you, i want you
lets be together
run with me, full speed
no stopping cause they dont know anything at all
we are not young we are just naive
and thats okay with me
Posted on: 22-11-2010, 23:20:58

FINGERS INTERTWINED
if all of this silence could be filled
with your voice
my heart dances to the very sound
each word, beating faster
this world we are chasing after
we feel so little but we've grown tough
should we be scared and run
or should we risk feeling the love of a lover
before you never knew of its existence
crossing the lines of our innocence
found it as one while holding onto each other
just hearing from you
a sensation falls over me
an emotion that i keep
in creeps a smile across my face
you're in my heart and you're welcome to stay
a place where you can reside
when it's safe to sleep at night
you look into my eyes  
and I become in sync with you
i close my eyes
our fingers intertwined
No im not scared of this world at all
and neither are you
awaiting as it revolves around the sun
we watch it shine on everyone
counting down the days
i just want to hold you tight and say I love you
i willing to risk, all this love
cause pain just comes with it anyway
an accomodation we all sacrifice to save
all i want to feel is safe, with you its like breathing
my heart dances to the very thought of it
do you want to dance along, fingers intertwined
and i watch you close your eyes
no we are not scared of this world at all
we dance along as it revolves
each spin, less silent and innocent
as we hold on to each other
Posted on: 22-11-2010, 23:31:39
LIKE A DREAM[/u]
flash of my curiousity
acceleration of the senses
im aware to find new directions
i bet your mind has long since
evolved
i like to see these memories
staying strong
searching for a needed release
looking around to see new roads
hold whole, come back and im not
doing this alone
remind yourself one of the most
greatest values is your smile
keeping me awake at night
and i dont mind it
i will spend the night losing sleep for you
just to know that i dont need to dream
it comforts me, cause nothing else will do...[/color]

[Mrok(Gloom)Robert M]

And I thought that nothing will be more exciting than wondering about atoms secrets around their elements mass and energy balance.. I guess its a bit funny and weird how I generate passion to even small simple things... but maybe those are same meaningful and mysterious as everything else we see and know... But you bring me new space... whole universe of feelings... where, so could be wonderful, idea of antimatter is just a little light bulb outshined by all the rainbow of colours you give... Certainly I was looking like totally shocked when I made first reading... You really question your human belonging gurl lol... You are really straight from Heaven... Master of art... Poetry patron or goddess... Each more reading is only making first impression stronger... Even Moon doesn't have enough light to prison my eyes that long... Here are my raw ideas for titles: Life tightrope, The most precious of treasures, Stuck in motion, Fingers intertwined... So little I can try to help... and... ummm... I fail with giving title to the last one... Maybe its because words are not easy to take a place of such start, summary and the essence... or we need something that doesn't come from the lines, but circles around the source... like... Loving... I don't know... I cant name the special... I can only feel it... You are proofed winner... Teared eyes in someone who switched major heart leadership into mind control... You bring back heart beat system into thoughts... Reminding meanings of word love instead of alone worshipping logic... World without magic is just a fading past... You make sure that new days gates are still open... We are so alike to everything that is building this place... Two people are building an atom... One is in lack of some mater and offers some charge... Second can fill the empty space and takes the energy like emotion... Its more complicated than this simple math explanation... Maybe... maybe not maybe... we are learning it... through living life... and love...

[hazel681]

thank you! i understand what you are saying...i used your titles by the way lol i didnt even think of giving them ones..i gave the last one a title too. but my writing has gotten more intense..im finally feeling things more as an adult than a child..but still have the love of a child.....

[Mrok(Gloom)Robert M]

Lol... love of a child... I could say it about few adults... at least they have it for some moments in life... when they are losing control in freedom... ummm... I guess when they don't have to try being serious... away from everyones else eyes ... Errr... Hmmm... I better stick to my own life insted of interrupting someones privacy even if its just a ghostly focus haha ... Anyway... Trust me... Its always the same flame... Time doesn't have to chase it away from the eyes ... I know I know... You must give it own flow ... like a flower doesn't appear of just like that... it grows even before the appearance of the bud... it grows with the plant... Its like everything starts from the idea of coming ... I cant say its really so simple with love ... Even when this feeling was here with all the history ... Maybe because every new life is a new story ... Illuminating... like in some pretty wise movie ... Oh... Last title is perfect ... Some people are even teaching that life is some sort of a dream ... or at least can be seen with such believe, but with respect to new rules differing it from other dreams ... Its the door to art... and to feel a distance from life for a moment... It can take away rule of the time and give more careful observation to the events ... I am just talking lol XD... You are making awesome art in its place ... Hmmm... That thing you admit - turning adult - it makes me feel that you made jump in ranking ... but I have no idea how to give you more serious treatment lol ... Maybe in our friendship we will stay more as kids forever haha ... Naaah... lady ... I think you will take control ... pretty soon ... and I will feel your asking as commands ... Well well... decide if its silly, weird or appropriate lol ... You are turning into harmony ... I can be in complicated unworldly twist... and your powerful talent is creating serious distortion in my life motion ... You are adding serpent of colour... God knows what will come from this ... Maybe some inspiration effect ... I think I need to wait a bit and see what will come out from this mind boil ... I am already thinking in so used to be absent way ... Interesting 

[hazel681]

^^ haha rob thank you!! i loved EVERY word of your response   i hope you dont mind that i took some lines and created a poem      


THE FLAME OF LOVE ♥
loving like a child of an older soul
stray from everyone's eyes
such a ghostly focus for them
always the same flame
love is not simple but still a gift
a feeling with history in existence
differing from these dreams
they are just as real and luminous
seeing harmony for the first time
wont be going back to my less expanding
a distortion in my life motion
adding a serpent of color
God only knows what will come from this
an inspiration effect?
i think i will wait for a while
maybe this empty space will shine in it's absence
just so the return of the missing piece
is more rewarding than ever before[/color]
Posted on: 03-01-2011, 21:44:18


EPIPHANY ABOUT TIME


You either cherish it or you neglect it.
 You Waste it or you don't.
  Every Living, breathing moment.
Connecting everyone in this world.
 We live in time.
  We indulge in time.
Take advantage. Take for granted.
 It's simply given.
  Then suddenly runs out.
It's quick and silent.
 When we were little we watched clouds pass.
  Time is forever present.
A memory can be a regret.
 It knows when you leave this Earth.
  It tells you when it's your time to go.
Use it or lose it!
 You cannot predict it's future.
  It's not accurate.
It endlessly surprises you.
 Disappointment...bu t also overwhelming joy.
  A baby develops over 9 months.
Being born, proof of the capability of time.  
 Love grows.
  You heal.  You hurt.
A cycle.
 Eras. Trends. Instances. Lifetime.
  Time can be right or wrong.
Don't let it fool you.
 Don't lose it.
  It's one of the most valuable things.
Precious and daring.
 60 seconds is a minute. 60 minutes is an hour.
  24 hours in a day. 7 days a week. 4 weeks in a month.
12 months, 52 weeks, that's 365 days.
 POSSIBILITIES. Places.
 Choose to live.
Appreciate.
 LIve FReely.
  Time to let go
Anything beyond time cannot change.
To change you must have time to change in.  
A present moment into the past.
Does time even EXIST?
just measurement cut into parts, we believe to be true.
Stars are just old light.
We see in the night sky, different times,
shining before us.
Defined as a nonspatial continuum
in which events occus in irreversible succession
from past
through present
to the future.  
Probably one of the best definitions you will ever read.
To Whom It May Concern:

SAVOR IT BEFORE IT'S GONE..
                                                                                                        
Posted on: 03-01-2011, 22:03:51Strings are unattached
Seams are broken
Put my foot down
To stop this spinning
In the cycle that we've been in
Over again
Got lost but found love there residing
Spinning and wondering
But we weren't alone
Accomplanied by each other
At least we know love is real
Had a taste of the fine life
With a comfortable home
Pain is the simple compromise
Now time will only tell
As we are apart
6 hours away, but still the same sun over us
No old routine of conversation
No lingered feeling
This is the breaking point
To be hurting and healing
Giving life a whole new meaning
Being open to focusing on things
That will get us there
Maybe we'll find each other there
Maybe it will be the same road
Hold my hand and away we go
But this is the start
To stop and sit back
Have to say no, stay apart and retract
It's a longer kind of temporary
Not as fast as ordinarily
To fall back in love that I can't fall out of
This way we are reversing the usual
Came to know each other, now we undo it
Taking the period of time
To lose knowing, meet you again like a new friend
And it's possible that this friendship
Later takes a turn back again
Where we see together and then
That's the end
Right here where we feel safe, we can't give in
Got to let go
Moving on is the hardest part
With the hurt that already knows

[Mrok(Gloom)Robert M]

You must have Grebel sense to know when I leave this place unguarded by my anxiety for few days lol , so you can freely come and post your arts not disturbed by my dorky spirit ... Those Grebels ... Hmmmm... what should I do for being used as supporting inspiration?   ... errr... for being one of the inspiration sources? ... Haha... I will cuddle you for that ... nah jk... I will just give you a hug ... Lol... dorky memories of learning difference between quite similar words ... You shine girl... You shine ... You master palette of words, whole lines, writting tricks and other special abilities ... You learn the language of art to speak it fluently with top level skill and... I can enjoy being quite shocked lol ... I cant deny... Nuh uh ... You bring perfect art in place of my single sentence ... Its like you are giving wings to grounded definition ... Girl from Heaven Sky huh? ... You are not little cherub I once met ... You have at least black belt haha XD... Last art... Fruits of yesterday, harvest of tomorrow ... You made me speechless ... A boom of crafting talent ... List of values for one composition run further than ever expected ... Lol... deja vu... You surprise me again ... Its supernatural

[ericb]

I love your writing. don't be afraid to make changes,changes can be good,especially if they improve your life.i know things can get scary at times,but moving on is often the best thing. yes,sometimes compromise can seem painful,but often it's the best thing down the road. anyway,i love your writting keep it up.

[hazel681]

Thank you guys ! it means alot that you read them and like them and commented about them too haha  !! Supernatural rob? idk haha i think i just have grown up more with my words lol. its nothing magical, its more just reality  

i dont really know if i like this one haha oh well  


laying here, staring at the ceiling
wondering when it will fly away too
it's raining outside but i cant tell the difference
by the looks of all the tears in this room
waiting for a piece of heaven to reach
a slow sinking peace, coming over me
like a brick to the floor they drop
sounding so heavily,
waves crashing against walls, sounds so heavenly
floating off into the deepest part of me
where i find you, held within these dreams
so i wont have to miss you
with another wave breaking, that I ride carelessly
dragging me down to look up and see through
falling into this flood, consuming every bit of me
this daze that i meet, i welcome too easily
til i get so angry for letting it see me
feeling so weak, staring at the ceiling
its raining inside by the looks
of this room
dropping like bricks
you dont have to miss me too

[Vikki]

After catching up, once again, ur talent it that of an outstanding standard, i love them all (that includes the last one ur unsure about  ) , great job girl.